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9 Steps To Create A Better Life

Would you like to create a better life? These are the 9 steps that will take you from a life that frustrates you to the one you envision in your dreams. I learned learned these through my own personal experience.

1 Release any victim mentality and acknowledge and absorb the fact that you have the right, permission, and privilege of creating the life you desire.

create better life2 Envision the life you desire. Seek a divine confirmation that it’s in your highest good.

3 Emotionally engage with your vision. What does it look like? How will you feel when it’s here? Immerse yourself in the vision and the emotions of it. Bathe in it.

4 Make any personal changes you need to be worthy, deserving and capable of receiving and enjoying the vision. Let the vision hold you accountable in the little decisions along the way.

5 Grow a spine. Say no to anything that is outside your vision or will lead you away from it. Say yes to anything that aligns with it. Clear boundaries are essential.

6 Keep refining your vision, allow God to have input into it. What you thought you wanted may not be best for you. Allow the vision to morph.

7 Surrender to God how, when, where and who else is involved.

8 Trust God’s timing is perfect. Live in gratitude that the vision is on its way to you.

9 Embrace it when it arrives and continually live in gratitude and wonder to God for His divine orchestration, mercy for mistakes you made along the way, and generosity. What comes will be much better than anything you envisioned.

Notice nothing in this says you have to think or act perfectly along the way. You’re going to make mistakes and sometimes royally screw up.

You’ll struggle with doubt, negative thoughts and maybe even depression. You may even feel betrayed by and angry with God.

Adjust, get back on track, ask for forgiveness but most of all forgive yourself. You probably will feel you didn’t deserve the blessing in the end. Forgive yourself and accept God’s amazing mercy and grace.

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About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.

Lose Yourself to Find Yourself

There are a lot of things we can lose in this world, but in the end they are just things. The truly frightening thing is to lose yourself. To wake up to the realization that you aren’t the sum total of your experiences and accomplishments. When everything is stripped away – the stuff, the dreams, the skills, and abilities, your health, and all you’re left with is you, you cry out to God, “What else will you take from me? I’m not even me anymore. Who am I? What am I?”

At last you remember: “I am a child of God, a divine sibling of every other person who has walked this planet. Quite simply I am an extension of God — His representative on earth, a walking embodiment of His love. Nothing else is real. Nothing else matters or lasts.”

Why must we wade through the excruciating to remember and absorb the simple?

Maybe it’s because of what my friend Carolyn Calton often says,

“We learn who we’re not before we remember who we really are.”

The question I will be asking myself each day is “How can I more fully be the love today?”

Today, as I’ve pondered this question, I’ve realized who I need to show love for, first and foremost is me. Jesus said, “Love your neighbor as yourself.” How can we truly love anyone else if we don’t fully love ourselves?

I’m realizing I need to acknowledge myself, what I’ve been through, the grace with which I’ve navigated this voyage on choppy seas. While going through the divorce, my friend Rhonda Hess gave me an assignment to speak to my own heart like I’d speak to a friend as I went to sleep each night. Tell my heart what I admire about it, what’s good about it, truly embrace and love my own beautiful, giving and loving heart.

It was revolutionary for me at the time, and I’m pulling that exercise back out and using it again. It’s time… past time. It’s time to be the love with me.

About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.

Quest for Love: A Masterpiece in the Making

Have you ever watched someone throw pottery? Sometimes things seem to be shaping up nicely and then the potter smashes it flat and starts over. The pottery rarely looks like a masterpiece along the way. If you were to stop mid-process you’d see flaws and misshapen pieces. Sometimes it looks absolutely nothing like the final product.

As we proceed through our lives I think we could benefit by seeing them through the Master Potter’s eyes. God is outside of space and time, He sees us as a finished product — a final masterpiece. He knows what’s being created, and He isn’t the least bit concerned about your screw-ups along the way.

Greek Roman potteryWe, on the other hand, see only flaws, mistakes, and strange shapes throughout the process. As we look at our own lives, circumstances, and other people it would be great if we could get in our minds’ eye a vision of the finished product.

I found this video of the pottery-making process. It’s mesmerizing to watch. Notice the video starts by showing you the finished product, then goes back and shows you how the artist created it. As we watch, we are fascinated by how he does it, but we aren’t the least bit concerned or confused about whether everything will turn out right in the end.

Unfortunately, in our own lives, we don’t always have that end picture in mind. We don’t know where God is going or what He’s creating. When we (or He) smashes our clay flat, we don’t always have the faith that He can still turn it into a masterpiece. But He can.

For us, it is an exercise in faith and trust to believe that no matter how badly flawed or messed-up our lives look, if we allow Him to be the Potter of our lives, a masterpiece WILL inevitably be created.

Along my Quest for Love, sometimes it looked like a pitiful misshapen ashtray. At one point, I felt as if my entire life was smashed flat into an unrecognizable heap. It’s amazing how quickly (in a matter of months) God took that formless heap and shaped a brand new beautiful love story. This process has taught me to look at every aspect of my life with more trust that somehow, in the end it’s all going to work out beautifully.

About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.

Quest for Love: Stop Chasing Carrots

I’ve noticed that there is always a bit of something anti-climactic that goes on when you finally achieve a big dream that you’ve been working toward. Almost always, the goal is achieved in what feels like an ordinary way. So we have a tendency to just roll on with our lives and not fully celebrate the miracle of it.

Also, once we have the thing we wanted, we start seeing the next thing that we’d like to have. We start obsessing over some other thing that isn’t quite right in our world; and that becomes the object of our focus.

I call it “chasing carrots.” If you’re someone who feels like you’re constantly chasing elusive carrots, looking for that “Big Thing,” the “Big Break” or the “Huge Success”… this short video is for you.



About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.

Quest for Love: Following Taillights

[This blog entry is the 13th in my Quest for Love Series. If you’d like to start at the beginning, click here.]

I don’t know if it’s just me or if it happens to others, but the right people always come into my life at the right time. The exact mentors, friends, teachers and companions intersect my path to help me get through whatever it is I’m dealing with. They’re guides who help me navigate to my next destination.

It’s like being on a winding road on a dark, rainy night and seeing tail lights just ahead. What a relief it can be to have someone to follow!

When I’d first decided to get a divorce, but hadn’t even told my spouse or family, I had a business acquaintance come to mind.  We had exchanged services about six months earlier.  One day she was on my mind, so I sent her an email to ask how she was doing. She replied that my timing was impeccable. She’d had me on her mind as well. She’d even put my name on her to-do-list for contact, but hadn’t gotten to it yet.

We set up a time to talk, and she asked how my life and business were going. I admitted to her that I had decided to get a divorce. In response she revealed that she too was going through a divorce. I had no idea this was the case. She and her spouse had filed several months earlier and because of the state they lived in, there was a lengthy waiting period.

What’s more, her marriage had an extremely similar dynamic to my marriage. She began telling me how she and her husband-at-the-time had mapped out an amicable divorce that helped their children make the transition more smoothly.

At the time, it never occurred to me that a divorce could be as amicably as she described. She gave me tips and pointers for making it flow better. I ended the call by thanking her for letting me “follow her taillights.”

Over the last couple years, this woman and I have become wonderful friends. Soul sisters, if you will. Sometimes I’m following her taillights and sometimes she’s following mine. Our paths intersect in so many interesting ways. It’s as if we’re always learning similar life lessons. The opportunity to share our experiences lifts, encourages and gives each of us more insight into our own challenges.

I’m very grateful for those little nudges that have come over the last couple years that have prompted either she or me (often both of us simultaneously) to reach out to the other.

As you go through your journey of life, I hope you’ll open yourself up to receiving the people God places on your path to show you the way. It’s a huge blessing to have a shoulder to lean on, a sounding board, or a soul sister to share your heart’s concerns. It’s a priceless gift to have such friends.

PS: Want to hear something weird? The minute I saved this blog, my friend (who I haven’t talked to in several weeks), texted me to say she had a window to talk and wanted to know if I could. Yep, it’s fun having a soul sister!

friends are like taillights on a dark night

About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.

Quest for Love: Visions Are Not Assignments

While my last blog entry cautioned against becoming a “spiritual junkie” who expects a constant stream of visions, insights and revelations, I also believe in documenting what is coming to you. There are some seasons of our lives when we receive more inspiration than others.

Let me give you an example. As I was going through the divorce, I spent a lot of time praying, fasting, meditating and really seeking to know and do God’s will. It was a big decision … one that violated a lot of my core values. I wanted to make sure I was doing the right thing in choosing it.

Along the way, I received some important messages about my future. I saw certain things that were coming. Some of them happened fairly quickly. Others were out in the future.

For example, about 2.5 years ago when my business took a major hit as I let my money-making Web site go, I was meditating. I had this visual come to me.

I leapt off a cliff and was in a free-fall for quite a while. I wondered if I would crash, but didn’t hit bottom. God’s hand caught me and delivered me to the top of another cliff. There was a man standing there… the man I knew God had in mind for me.

vision isn't an assignmentLast week, as I was looking at the image of Lover’s Leap on my personal Facebook page, I realized my fiancé proposed to me at the top of a cliff!

When the visual came, I assumed it was completely metaphorical. I certainly did go into a long free-fall and wondered if I might splat in more ways than one. Interestingly enough the visual was both symbolic and literal.

Remembering this made me go back and read my journal entries. There are some things in my journal that I realize now I misinterpreted. Some have happened. Others seem highly improbable.

While reading one entry from my journal a couple days ago, I thought, “That’s probably not going to happen. Maybe it was my imagination kicking in.” Then I remembered the Lover’s Leap moment and how I did not orchestrate that at all. It was never my job to orchestrate it.

What if none of the impressions I receive are mine to orchestrate or “make happen?”

Here’s what I’m coming to believe. Let’s say you catch the vision of something that feels incredibly inspired. You feel it in your bones, it’s meaningful and significant. Okay, great.

A vision or dream about the future (unless accompanied by a strong impression to do something specific) is not an assignment. It is not your job to force the vision to happen. Look at impressions about the future as someone sharing landmarks to look for on a road trip.

If I give someone directions to my house, I’ll say something like, “Look for the two green mail boxes and the gravel road.” Is it the traveler’s responsibility to create the two green mail boxes and the gravel road? Of course not! The traveler simply looks for them. The mailbox and gravel road are markers that let the person know they are on course. They signify a turning point.

I am a “get it done” visionary. I can leap to a lot of wrong conclusions and try to make things happen. It’s incredibly easy for me to try to force the vision. I often make it an assignment. But I’m beginning to believe these are not assignments. They are simply landmarks to look for on my journey. They may signify turning points. Or they may help me recognize that I’m on course. But it’s not my assignment to manufacture them any more than a visitor to my home needs to manufacture the two green mail boxes and the gravel road.

Can Forcing a Vision Mess Things Up?

One could say my drive to find the man at the top of the cliff actually got in my way. I went out in search of him, keeping myself involved with different men across the U.S.

All the while the man God had in mind for me was 5 minutes away at my son’s middle school. I passed him as he directed traffic every schoolday, never knowing he was asking about me, always being told by his mom “she’s dating someone.”

So, a case could be made that I delayed matters by turning the vision into an assignment.

Another case could be made for it all happening as it should have. There were experiences and lessons I needed along the way that enabled me to fully appreciate the man God had in mind.

Bottom line, God knew he was working with “get it done Marnie.” He knew how I would react, the people I’d meet and where I’d end up. He knew I’d get there eventually.

This experience has given me more hope that no matter how I wander around and feel lost, God’s got the vision. He’ll get me there.

 

About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.

Quest for Love: Spiritual Achilles Heel

In my last post I talked about how the need for acknowledgement can get us in trouble in relationships. Today, we’ll discuss how it can cause trouble for spiritual visionaries as well.

When you catch the vision of something past, present or future, and attribute it to being from God, you need to remember one important thing. Recognize that you also have an incredible imagination. It isn’t always easy to tell where God’s inspiration ends and your imagination begins.

Because of this, I recommend you avoid telling others “God told you” this or that; or that “God showed you” this or that. You got an idea. It felt inspired. It may be God talking to you, and it might be your incredible imagination at work. It could also be your brilliant mind forecasting a trajectory of potential outcomes. You could also be mixing in your own interpretations like I discussed in an earlier post.

The Praise Junkie Achilles Heel

Be cautious of pride that creeps in when you feel the need to tell other people that God is speaking to you. If you are someone who craves acknowledgement or can be a “praise junkie” you have an Achilles heel. Sharing things that “God told you” combined with people giving you kudos or acting like you’re so wonderful and spiritual gives you a dopamine hit that feeds your need for acknowledgement.

Yes, spiritual acknowledgement can be every bit as seductive as crazy, stupid love!

Let’s face it, God isn’t constantly speaking to all of us in visions, dreams, voices or major inspiration. Most of the time we’re ordinary people living our lives in relative normalcy. Yes, the still small voice can guide you day-by-day. Notice “still” and “small.” It’s not an overwhelming voice from heaven or visions of glory!

If you’re constantly getting fan-fair-ish visions and insights, they could be your imagination. Or worse, your need for praise could be opening you up to receiving from other sources than God.  There’s an immense amount of information broadcasting in the spiritual realm. Just because you’re picking things up in a way that feels “outside of you” doesn’t mean it’s from God.

If you have an unmet need for spiritual acknowledgement and people give you kudos, you are getting a hit of dopamine. It’s really not that different than dating a flattering man who feeds your need for acknowledgement as a woman!

The more you get hooked on the dopamine hits, the harder it is to tell the difference between something God is telling you and something from your own imagination or elsewhere. You’ve become a “spiritual junkie” who needs your next “hit.” You can only get those hits from an “aha moment” or the acknowledgement you get by sharing your spiritual “wow moments” with others.

What can you do to prevent this addiction? I had some great conversations with my friends Martina Muir, Amy Oliver, and Judy Hansen about this when I was in Utah. Lisa Rae Preston also provided some input upon my return home. Here are a few ideas we came up with.

  • First, make sure you are living your life in alignment with God’s word. Check what you’re receiving against divine truths. The more you live in alignment with God’s teachings, the safer you will be.
  • Second, keep your own spiritual confidences. Always journal them first. Ponder on them. Take a lesson from Mary, the mother of Jesus. When the angel appeared to her telling her she’d be the mother of the Son of God, Luke 2:19 says, “But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.”
  • Third, if you still feel the need to share, pick one person as a spiritual mentor who will be your sounding board, will be truthful with you, and who won’t feed your ego.
  • Fourth, look to God for acknowledgement and let that be enough. Let go of what other people think of you. You and God are the only ones that matter.
  • Fifth, beware of “spiritual sensationalism.” There is a whole subculture who feeds on a diet of constant, escalating spiritual hooplah.
  • Sixth, remember that what is true for you may not be true for everyone. If you receive an impression to do something in preparation for a future event, for example, that’s instruction for you and your family. It isn’t necessarily instruction for everyone around you.
  • Seventh, release unhealthy patterns and beliefs.  Energy therapy is a great way to do this. It’s been a significant part of my journey.

7 strategies to avoid spiritual deception

About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.

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Quest for Love: Watch Out for Your Achilles Heel

I’ve known it for years. I’m a praise junkie. Twenty-five years ago when I started my business, I over-delivered to clients who praised me. In essence, I received part of my payment in praise. Then, I wised up (or thought I did). I raised my rates and began working on this tendency to take peanuts for work when someone praised me profusely.

The problem is, the need for acknowledgement never really went away. It’s been a driver throughout my life. If you think about it, more of us have an issue with the “need for acknowledgement” than we care to admit. Every time you make a Facebook post and wait around for someone to Like it, Share it, or Comment on it, you’re waiting for that little dopamine hit that comes from being acknowledged.

First let’s explain what dopamine is. According to Pscychology Today,

Dopamine is a neurotransmitter that helps control the brain’s reward and pleasure centers. Dopamine also helps regulate movement and emotional responses, and it enables us not only to see rewards, but to take action to move toward them.”

Dopamine isn’t a bad thing. We need it, but having an addiction to it can be dangerous.

brain on dopamineWhat I learned from dating is that if you have a core unmet need for acknowledgement in some area of your life and someone feeds that need through flattery, praise, or making you feel you matter in that area, you can form an addiction to that person and to the chemical dopamine that is secreted in your brain by having them around or engaging in the rewarded behavior.

This addiction is what makes people do stupid things for love. In essence, if the other person has a mind to do so (and you allow it to happen), they can seduce you down a path you might never otherwise go.

Dompane numbs your frontal lobe which controls logical thinking. You may easily be led like a child to the water’s edge by your Pied-Piper chemicals.

Yes, it’s scary to come out of a relationship, wake up, and realize you’ve been in the twilight zone and haven’t been yourself in months.

So what can you do about it?

You might have to experience this phenomenon and feel like you “messed up” to identify that you have an issue with a core unmet need. As Lisa Rae Preston says, “Until you had to nurse the blister from the burn” you may not really be able to look at your situation objectively.

Once burned, twice shy. Your awareness of the need and knowing what a dopamine addiction feels like strengthens your resolve. With a strengthened resolve, you have more objectivity to keep from making the same mistake again.

Energy therapy has been a big part of my journey. It’s a great way to let go of caring what other people think, release past trauma and break unhealthy patterns.

I told you in my last blog we were going to talk about how to distinguish inspiration from imagination. What does dopamine and crazy, stupid love have to do with discerning the source of inspiration for visionaries? A lot!

Click here to find out.

 

About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.

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Quest for Love: Visions and Impressions

I work with a lot of visionaries, spiritually-adept teachers, consultants, speakers, coaches and other self-help professionals. I often say these folks are “hardwired for inspiration.” This is a great thing. They’re forward thinking, inspirational, innovative and positive for the most part. This makes my work fun.

Unfortunately, there are downsides to this spiritual, visionary intensity. Being a visionary myself, I’m learning a lot about the downsides to this spiritual strength. Over the next few blog entries, I’d like to share what I’m gleaning — mostly through experience as a single mom.

To say the world of online dating is a test of discernment would be an understatement! It’s been a great laboratory for learning to sift through inspiration, imagination, emotion, seeing patterns, and even chemicals in the brain.

Beware of Interpretations

Visionaries are hardwired for inspiration. Each of us have our own way of getting answers or receiving insight. Some of us have words or phrases come to us, others see things in our mind’s eye, others get a strong emotional sense about a situation, while others “just know.” Some people even receive inspiration through touching something, taste or smell. Experiencing a combination of these is common.

The interesting thing about visions, impressions or insights is that when we receive them, we have a tendency to interpret them through the lens of our current perceived reality. Most of the time events NEVER happen the way we see or imagine they will.

avoid the temptation to put your own interpretation on visions, inspiration or insightsToday’s tip for visionaries is to avoid the tendency to interpret what an insight means. Just document it. Journal, Journal, Journal! Then, let it go.

For example, when I was dating a man right after the divorce, I prayed about him and got the answer, “He is a man among men. You can’t go wrong with him.”  I interpreted this to mean he was the man I would marry.

The real interpretation was that this gentleman was “a man among men.” He was a very good man, a perfect gentleman. I could not have gone wrong with him morally. Also, going wrong with him would have been marrying him! He was the first to realize and admit that we were not a good match. He didn’t let us make a stupid mistake.

Since this experience, I’ve tried to be cautious about how I interpret an answer I perceive as coming from God. Even something that seems straight-forward doesn’t always mean what you think it does.

In my next posts, I talk about distinguishing inspiration from imagination. This post is part of a series. If you missed the others, you can start at the beginning here.

About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.

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Quest for Love: Dumb Dating Mistakes Women Make

This entry is the 7th in a series. To start at the beginning, go here.

Being single I’ve studied a few programs created by dating gurus. Most of them have one common theme. Women tend to be needy and over-deliver, over-invest, and over-expect. Before you argue with me, let me explain why there’s a lot of truth in this.

building relationshipsOne program I bought compared building a relationship to building a multi-story building.  The woman shouldn’t come in and build all the floors or even two floors to his one. You should build the floors together. Or if you build a floor, he needs to build a floor.

As a woman you should be contributing less than or no more than equal to the man’s investment.

There are lots of warnings about “neediness.’’ You don’t need to be texting him all the time, calling him, etc. Let him initiate those things.

Another guru suggests that women shouldn’t be hanging out on a guy’s Facebook wall liking and commenting on all his posts. Another says, if he backs off, you should back off. Most women go into panicky chase mode if a man backs away.

My dad gave me some interesting advice. It confused me thoroughly when he said it, but it proved incredibly true.

He said, “You need to not care. It’s when you don’t really care that a man wants you.”

I questioned him, “What? Not care? How do I do that? Just not care at all? And why would I want a man that I don’t care about?”

He added, “Well, care, but don’t care.”

“Gee, Daddy, what the heck does that mean?”

“I can’t explain it to you, but you’ll figure it out.”

I don’t know if I can explain this to you any better than my dad could, but I sure hope I can. If someone had really been able to explain it to me earlier, it would have helped immensely. In the end, I’m sure the timing was all for the best.

In every serious relationship I was in, I cared. I cared a lot. When you care a lot, you go overboard to do things that you think will please the man. It’s not that you’re lying or faking anything. You honestly don’t even know you’re doing it! You’re just genuinely enthralled with the person.

If he burped you’d want to store it in a jar. (Okay, maybe that’s a little overboard!) But you get my drift.

When you’re enamored, and especially when dopamine is coursing through your veins, everything the other person says or does is wonderful. You’re incredibly blind to red flags that tell you otherwise.

You aren’t your every-day, normal self. What happens is you start constructing that multi-story building, predominantly by yourself. Much of it is largely in your mind. It’s amazing how what goes on in your mind and emotions gets emitted to another person without you even saying a word. It’s a vibe.

You also do extra things to please him. You accommodate your schedule to spend time with him. You let some of your own interests go to the wayside.

Not until I went through a major breakup and didn’t trust my instincts, heart, or inspiration anymore, did I learn what it meant to “care, but not care.” I came to this place in two steps.

Step 1: Looking Myself in the Mirror

Immediately after the breakup, I started a new relationship. This man was instantly taken with me and started talking about how he wanted to marry me. He was smitten, and I could see he was very much like I’d been in other relationships. He was moving like a freight train, but I was still incredibly jaded. I remember thinking, “Poor thing, he’s on dopamine.”

This man was not needy, but he was determined. He was convinced I was the one for him. He reminded me SO much of myself. I thought, “Oh, man, no wonder I scared the crap out of those men I dated! No wonder they wouldn’t commit!”

When the other person is so driven and determined, you begin to feel like you want your own choice in the matter. You start slowing things down and telling the person you need some time and space.  Honestly, I wouldn’t call it needy. I’d call it feeling like you know what you want and by dang, you’re gonna have it.

Step 2: Being so Burned, I Couldn’t Care

I don’t recommend everyone learn how to “care but not care” the way I did. Honestly, I was incapable of caring. I was so jaded, I didn’t trust myself. I didn’t trust chemistry or hormones for sure. They’d betrayed me. I also didn’t trust my ability to receive inspiration, because I completely misinterpreted it when love-struck.

I had to get to the point where all I really wanted was someone to hang out with and go places. Marriage wasn’t even on my radar. I let any expectation of commitment go. I resolved to be myself, enjoy my life and never, ever let dopamine (the brain chemical released when you’re in a new relationship) rule my life.

I wrapped up my heart in a nice suit of armor, and I went out into the dating world simply for something to do. Once I did this, once I didn’t care anymore, that’s when the man came along who was ready to commit and choose me.

Because I didn’t care, I didn’t over invest. I was completely  myself. I was honest. I let him know my heart was guarded and that I needed some time to learn to trust my heart again.

He gave me some space. He made it very clear that I was the type of woman he’d been looking for, but he didn’t push. He wasn’t needy, and he wasn’t so determined that I felt pressured. It was the perfect balance.

I’ll be honest with you, I wasn’t sure I could even open my heart again. The thought occurred to me that I might be incapable of loving. But bit-by-bit, through a lot of prayer and energy therapy my heart began to trust again.

It was from this space of “caring, but not caring” that I found the man with whom I could create the love that I desired.

I don’t know if any of that makes sense, but I sure hope it helps someone. I hope it helps you find that space of “Caring, but not caring” without having to have your heart hammered to get there. It’s not the most pleasant route to travel.

About Marnie Pehrson

Marnie Pehrson is a best-selling author and marketing and social media consultant specializing in digital content creation and Facebook Ad Management. Get a FREE 20-minute strategy session with Marnie here.